When the unthinkable happens.

What happens when you don't understand anything that is happening and why?

What happens when the unthinkable happens?

That was exactly where I was a little over a month ago.

When we lost our little Alexis Rae.

Only the Lord knows what happened to her. All we know is that she got very sick, very sudden and it all happened very fast. That is not supposed to happen. This was a joyous occasion for my cousin and her family. This was a joyous occasion for everyone. She was and still IS perfect. In every way imaginable. Those 24 days were the biggest blessing to our family than we could ever fathom.

Her small hands, her tiny feet, her sweet cuddly personality- they were all here for a purpose. There were here to make us realize there will always be more love to go around. She was here to make us realize how precious life really is. She was here to make us realize God's true love.

Those 24 days were all here with a purpose- like all of us are. This purpose has shown brighter than anyone could expect. She has brought SO many people to the Lord, when they have had nothing else to depend on. Her own father has been to church for the past FOUR Sundays when in their eleven year marriage, he has only been twice. And today? He bought a Bible. That alone brings the biggest tears to my eyes. That he knows the Lord loves him and he will do anything to see his baby girl again one day.

The Lord has always been near through this experience. With a family with just enough money to make bills and an occasional fun day, they were able to raise money for all funeral expenses and current medical bills. They recieved checks and cash from people they didn't even know, just from people hearing their heartbreaking story from friends and family who were hurting right along with them. It was remarkable.

While Alexis was in CHKD prayers were nationwide. A text chain that went around the world held her name. Churches in over five states had prayer circles. Women's ministries raised money and prayed over it. Never did the Lord leave our side. Never. He was always there.

Sometimes life doesn't make sense. Sometimes things happen that seem to hurt so bad- there can't be any good. It's those situations that the Lord created for you to lean on Him. For you to let Him show you His goodness and love. I have a whole new idea of the phrase "If He brought you to it, He will bring you through it". That is exactly what happened in this situation. He is good. All the time.